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I think we're at our best by the flicker, by the light of the TV set. [Jan. 16th, 2009|05:56 pm]

       “People are always shouting they want to create a better future. It's not true. The future is an apathetic void of no interest to anyone. The past is full of life, eager to irritate us, provoke and insult us, tempt us to destroy or repaint it. The only reason people want to be masters of the future is to change the past.”

- Milan Kundera

Once I get out of high school, I hope to be able to compare the years after to those lovely little toys that you put into water and they soak up everything to become giant and then they shrink again. I think you have to be giant, to soak up the world around you and then shrink back into who you are really supposed to be.

That's my goal for 2009. I want to know everything, see everything, experience everything and say yes to more things. I want to expand, I want to become swollen and soaked with life.

( Don't you like how my quote contradicted what I wrote? I love contradiction. And I love being idiotic enough to explain my contradiction so people are sure that I did it on purpose. Everything comes back to what people think of you.)
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Aggrivated. [Jan. 2nd, 2009|11:05 pm]

You're the preacher's daughter.
He's got some new thoughts, new ways.
He don't believe in damnation, but he believes in another day.

I don't know about all those new age thoughts.
But I know that you, my friend, you're a little off.

You need all the boys to look at you. 
Robert says he wants you to know,
that he loves you, but you let him go.

Cause you're lookin for love, not from God above but from someone closer to you.
Though you know you'll never get him, you'll be with all his friends, just attempting to get the next best thing.
When none of them are what your daddy wanted.

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they go east for the real green eyes. [Jan. 1st, 2009|08:58 pm]

So I'm loving Jenny Lewis of Rilo Kiley's solo albums. I got both for Christmas and they are amazing!

Everything is a little slow.
I'm moving at this sluggish pace and I can't stand to see your face, because it's so much better in my head.

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Probably the highlight of my day. [Dec. 16th, 2008|04:15 pm]

Cyanide and Happiness, a daily webcomic
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Camera. [Dec. 14th, 2008|03:33 pm]

I don't know what kind of camera I want for Christmas.


I also really like Laser tag, by the way.


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Sometimes life is too confusing. [Dec. 12th, 2008|08:30 pm]

There was a man named Paul Revere.
He said his wife just wasn't sincere.
The British were coming, and her motor was humming.
What do you do when it happens to you? 

He couldn't figure her out.
He was the spider climbing up the waterspout.
When he got to the top, he realized he couldn't stop.
And then he fell back down.

But this time he hit the ground harder.
Reminding himself of his father.

When you hit the bottom
They say you can only go up from here.
But maybe I'll sink in the sand and dissapear.

Joan was working the late shift.
Shoes were scuffing up the pavement.
Before she could look up from her her tights that were torn and baby blue,
She fell down and her pride and knees were bruised.

When you hit the bottom
They say you can only go up from here.
But when you just keep falling, it keeps adding up.
Maybe it's better just to stay down.
On the cold, wet ground.

Just hoping you're not a burden to the buzzards who pick you clean.
Just hoping you're a light shining on everything.
If you bring some darkness, you'd combat it with warmth and  a smile.
It's faded, your teeth are rotten. And your skin is as cold as tile.

Why do I keep writing shitty want to be songs? 
I feel like maybe I have some actual creative something inside. But I don't.
Deal with it. It's not like anyone reads this!

Um, yeah. Life is not very eventful.

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Twisters and Twilight. [Nov. 28th, 2008|08:18 pm]

Like a drug you slunk into my heart.

And like a scar, you charred my mind. 

I'm reading all their thoughts,

but your eyes are cloudy and blind.

You're like a diamond in the sky.

The rest are just stars.

They glitter, they shimmer and then they fall. 

But you'll stay.




I'm in love with the movie Twilight. Really. They could not have picked a better cast, used better angles, or had cheesier lines that would make me happier. I mean, sure, I would've liked it to last four hours and say everything, take more time with things and possibly pick another Jacob (though I'm definitely warming up to Taylor Lautner!), maybe the Eric guy was annoying but I thought Mike was pretty damn realistic. I mean, other than the whole 'HOW YOU LIKIN DA RAIN GIRL? Better get used to it girl.'

I can't take the use of girl twice. I just can't. I cringe at that.

BUT I moved on and even got passed the kind of funny almost too serious parts where Edward is trying to tell her in the forest about his family secret. AS IF YOU COULD OUTRUN ME! It was like he was going to beat on his chest. Again, though these are the only things that bothered me. I loved everything else. And those problems were kind of adorable.

Jasper cracked me up. They managed to make this movie funny while still telling the story. I mean, you could see he was in pain, really. But you laughed. You have to laugh to have a good movie. Atleast a little. Carlisle was perfect. Esme was pretty good. I liked Rosalie, just bitchy enough. Alice was adorable and I'm glad they didn't pick someone too pixie like. Emmett was perfection. I mean, Kellan Lutz is a complete and total babe. I can't get over him being so hot. They were all hot, actually. All the vampires were. Except the evil ones. But I loved Laurent's voice. I like Victoria but the actress seems too sweet. James was great. Billy Black was a bit funnier and younger than I expected, but I like him a lot. Jessica and Charlie were amazing. I wasn't a big fan of the scene with Bella and Angela. 'You're a strong, independant women.' Overdone. Overplayed. I didn't like Angela in general. She's just kind of boring but she's like that in the book. I can't wait to see more Jacob in the next one.


Baseball. The Muse song made it so badass and then the scene where Victoria turns around at the prom and walks out... SO BADASS. The fight scene was also incredible! And I loved when they went to the Cullen house.

I'm more into the Cullen family & all the vampire stuff than Bella and Edward's relationship. Though I do like it, obviously. I'm a girl.

I've rambled a lot.

And I love getting lost in random towns full of cows on the way home from the mall with my friend. I'll miss her.


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it was for freedom; from myself and from the land. [Nov. 9th, 2008|09:18 pm]
[Current Music |Chicago - Sufjan Stevens]

I was attempting to figure this whole LJ thing out and suddenly, I saw this long ad on the side of my screen. It was really pink, automatically drawing my attention, my inner thirteen year old girl screaming. I read the large bubbly letters. ' Shave Lindsay Lohan's chest, win this that and the other.' So, I picked up what looked like a Venus, one of those fancy razors I can never keep up with, and attempted to shave Lindsay Lohan's flaming chest hair. The thing that scared me the most was the sinking feeling I got when this interactive ad did not ACTUALLY allow me to drag the razor down her chest but just took me to another website, which I closed before it could tell me I won an Ipod or something.

I'm a little worred about myself.

In other news, I'm not too excited Obama won though I realize the historical importance. I also think it shows great improvement in our society and honestly, the election couldn't have gone any other way. John McCain deserved it and I felt like my grandpa was being turned down but I'm not bitter. If Obama fucks up, I hope I don't have to say, "I told you so." If he really makes a difference, I'll admit it. I think that's the open minded thing to do. I'm all about being open minded.

First post, maybe more to come? Who knows? I like writing random shit that no one will read.
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